Beauty in the Details
The majority of these pictures are credited to the eye of Lauren. She has that “eye” and somehow manages to capture the beauty in the details. A few of the pictures I took, but between the two of us, I feel like we have been able to capture natural beauty while living in Poland. The pictures span our time here and in no particular order. Some are from when we lived in Tomaszow, out at camp, or around Poland during some excursions.
It gets a little emotional looking back over all our pictures as I was pulling these particular beauties out. All the events and activities we’ve been a part of, the joys and sorrows as we’ve trudged through the cross-cultural waters, and reminders of the nuggets of clarity following times of great uncertainty…. the array of photos that capture almost two years of hopes and dreams does indeed conjure up many emotions. We’re writing the final chapters of our time in Poland and doing it in a rather unusual way with our family separated by the Atlantic Ocean.
How do you move forward when your heart doesn’t want to let go?
Adversity glows red… hot embers that can quickly escalate into a huge bonfire or a smoldering pile of ashes once put out. I read from a daily devotional, My Utmost for His Highest, every day and this past week was poignant:
“Our circumstances are the means God uses to exhibit just how wonderfully perfect and extraordinarily pure His Son is. Discovering a new way of manifesting the Son of God should make our heart beat with renewed excitement…. And if God puts you into adversity, He is adequately sufficient to “supply all your need” (Philippians 4:19).”
Leaving Tomaszow was like losing the wind for sailing. Life as we knew it stopped. The wind did pick up and we “sailed on”, but it never was the same. It’s been almost 6 months and I’m faced closing out my chapter of living in Poland with such defeat. Our two years of living here have looked so different. It’s as if we have had two different lives. Thankfully camp has always been a place that has stayed the same and it symbolizes so much for me personally. It’s something I feel like I can still feel good about in terms of my role with the ministry.
SO…looking forward to our next steps of reuniting our family (bit by bit!) back Stateside is just another difficult period to imagine as there is nothing solid and concrete to visualize… and I’m (if you haven’t already guessed) a visual learner. So the Scripture from Philippians is what I cling to: He is adequately sufficient to “supply all my need”.
AND the pictures are something I felt the Spirit moved me to share because as I am wrestling with the question “How do I move forward when my heart doesn’t want to let go?” I’m sensing the answers lies embedded between the pictures (the beauty in the details) and the words Oswald Chambers penned in my daily devotional.
Hopefully, by the time I board the plane in September with a newborn in tow, I will have found the answer to this question AND found peace in the closure of this chapter in our lives. And not only that but an excitement for the next chapter.
Yes, Lord, I want to be a vessel and conduit of our love and be joyful in where you are placing us next. But the next chapter can’t begin until this one is fully closed, right? Help me to see the beauty in the details…. the details that already are present and visual to my eye. Because TRUTH teaches me that you WILL meet all of my needs: emotional and physical. Help me to learn how to simultaneously “let go” and “move forward”. Help me to have that “heartbeat of renewed excitement” as you manifest Your Son in my life in only the way You know is best in bringing You glory.